Sunday Morning Blues

I know there are many who can relate to Sunday mornings often being the most difficult of the week.  That was certainly the case for me this week.  We have a family-integrated house church in which we currently have three families that participate regularly and a couple of others from a ways away that come when they can.  We have hosted it every Sunday since last October, but two Sundays ago one of the others got to the point on their new house that they were able to host for the first time.  Hallelujah! 

This past Sunday, however, it was back at our house and I was feeling like we were having a hard time getting the house what we call "company-ready".  I got all in a tizzy and started talking in not-so-nice tones to all the members of my family.  I was down on the floor scrubbing up sticky messes and sweating (this made me particularly unhappy) and complaining to beat the band.  "The floor's a mess, the dishes aren't done, I'm not ready, the floor's a mess, the entryway isn't ready, the floor's dirty, etc."  It was pretty embarrassing!  Even at the time.  But that night I asked my family to please forgive me for the way I behaved and my 15 yr old daughter imitated my grumblings.  This was really humbling.  But we got a good laugh out of it at least. 

I often find that I get all bent out of shape about being late or the house being a mess prior to someone coming and in the end it all works out fine anyway.  I try to do things in my own strength and all I get is worn out.  I hope I am learning to give those frustrating moments to God and let Him give me peace instead.  I am also trying to get to the point where our house is neater on a regular basis and it won't have to be such an effort at the last minute!  We'll see how I do at that!

Blessings,
Sheryll

A Deut. 6 Heart in Rom. 7 Skin

Explanation:  Deuteronomy 6: 6-9 says “And these words, which I command thee this day, shall be in thine heart: And thou shalt teach them diligently unto thy children, and shalt talk of them when thou sittest in thine house, and when thou walkest by the way, and when thou liest down, and when thou risest up.  And thou shalt bind them for a sign upon thine hand, and they shall be as frontlets between thine eyes.  And thou shalt write them upon the posts of thy house, and on thy gates.”  Now this is pretty much our life verse.  There are others, but I can go into that at another time.  As far as the Romans 7 part: verse 15 says “For that which I do I allow not: for what I would, that do I not; but what I hate, that do I.”  So basically what I mean by this is that my heart has the best of intentions for being a wonderful wife and mother, but I have the hardest time living this out!

I have been told by many people that I am so “real”.  They seem to mean this as a compliment, but I find that there aren’t that many other “real” people out there.  I understand the “power of positive confession” and the value of sharing the positive things you’ve learned for the benefit of others, but I am feeling like God wants to use my “real-ness” to bless others in perhaps a unique way. 

It is my goal here to be open about my (and sometimes my family’s) victories AND failures.  My life seems to be filled with so many ups and downs.  I think most people’s are.  So hopefully you can relate to this roller coaster we are on.  I pray that a glimpse into our crazy, sometimes busy, sometimes a little monotonous life will be a blessing to any who happen to read about it.

Sheryll